lightness of being. grace.

sometimes i have such a hard time, really. it's not that something bad happened, no, it's just that life seems so hard so hard. so many things to take care of all by myself. when i feel all that i wonder how on earth have i ever had fun in this life and i remember that i had believe me, lots of fun. nothing seems to be about fun now. life is serious life is a burdain all the time you have to fight for something you just can't let go and enjoy. good is never enough, it has to be better and better and better ad infinitum. maybe it's just me but i don't think so i see people around and they seem to be the same, constantly worrying fighting being scared. i just want to relax a bit.

(when i see people kissing in the street i stop, i really stop, and wonder how is that possible how has it ever been possible)